T. Marie Alexander
Publication date: January 27th 2017
Genres: Contemporary, Young Adult
Have you ever craved something so badly that all reason was just an excuse getting in your way?
Have you needed something so desperately that you didn’t care how you got it or who you hurt in the process?
I have—and not that long ago.
Acceptance… from family and friends…
Acceptance of the person I am inside and not outright rejection.
It didn’t come easily for me, and now I believe the world needs to know just how ruthless life can be. How that overwhelming yearning for acceptance can mold you into someone you don’t recognize when you look in the mirror. I’m through hiding behind one façade after another—it’s time for the world to meet the real me.
Wow! The first sentence alone already had me hooked. How much more the rest of the story?
This story is written like a series of journal entries. Yes, I have read a book recently that was done the same way. In this book, instead of Dear Diary, it was Dear Antoinette. Antoinette Justice is the main character of this story. Pretty much the whole story revolved around her issues as a teenager. Her need for acceptance and love. Her trying to overcome her insecurities and self-esteem issues.
This is an account of Antoinette's sad and scorned life. In her young life, she had experienced a lot of heartaches that only happen in a drama series. A life where she is trying hard to fit in, even at home. Her search for love and acceptance brought her to people and places where ordinarily people her age not go. She stumbled upon unlikely friendships which help her get out of her shell. The same friendship also introduced her to people whom she thought will love her but ended up hurting and breaking her more.
This story will squeeze your heart to a breaking point. The events of Antoinette's life could well be situations in real life, only they do not happen to different people. Her own parents, whom should love her unconditionally has a different way of showing love, which are in most cases not at all acts which could be construed as love. She found love in a person she shouldn't get involved. This has been the lowest she could go. Good thing, she had more sense than she gives herself credit for. She got out from that situation even if it took all of her willpower to do so.
This is a coming of age story of finding one's self. Of realizing one's worth not from the superficial gauge people set but from a perspective one has to follow--one's self and values. Growing and learning from life's experiences, no matter how cruel they were, made her stronger and wiser. This is exactly what Antoinette had to do. In the end, all the times she endured and all those hardships have paid off. And she is now free of all the bad things and negative emotions that shackled her. She is free to love and be loved and she can be everything she wanted to be because she is a strong woman. She has been schooled in the hardest lessons in life and she is now ready to take on anything.
I give this book 5/5 pairs of women's running shoes. This is a story of a very strong girl who didn't know her strength and her worth. She had to go through some traumatic and tragic things in life to shine through. In the end, she only needed to find herself.
Life is made of obstacles that test you as a person. Sometimes, those obstacles are people. Sometimes, they are emotions. And other times, the obstacle is you.
- T. Marie Alexander, Revelations -